7.31.2012

1225 songs, +/- 3 Days, 7,71 GB. I did download it? Can't believe this.
I currently liking the songs below, well--they were accidentally playing in my iTunes and I started to like them again :)
I decided to wrote a post about some lyrics in the end of beautiful month, July :)
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I hope that you see right through my wall
I hope you catch me 'cause I'm already falling
(Arms by Christina Perri)

You'll never know if you try To forgive your past and simply be mine
(One and Only by Adele)

You're the only one I'm dreaming of, .... I want the world to see you be with me
(Hey Soul Sister by Train)

It's even harder to picture That you're not here next to me
(Payphone by Maroon 5)

How can it end like this, I can't beleive Those countless promises What to do
(Daydream by Super Junior)

If I didn't know you, I'd rather be not know If I can't have you, I'd rather be alone
(Falling in Love at A Coffee Shop by Landon Pigg)

And I don't want to ruin what we have Love is so unpredictable
(Best Friend by Jason Chen)

If I could bottled the smell of the wet land after the rain I'd make it a perfume and send it to your house
(After the Rain by Adhitia Sofyan)

I just simply love the lyrics from the songs above. Feel free to hear their songs and put it in your playlist :D
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Please wish me a tons of luck, I'll start my college life since this August! And wish you all have a great August! :D


7.30.2012

(Finally...) 17

Prologue: 17
For some person, especially girls, they really like 17. Sweet 17, they said.

Well, as a girl, I also think about 17. Sweet Seventeen. I also think, will it really be sweet? Hope so :)

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July 29th 1995
A baby girl was born, identified as Leony Husnul Khotimah. The girl who was born in July so her star-sign will be Leo, and she will make everything good in the end. That is her name's meaning.


July 29th 1996
The baby girl took her first step on the floor, on her 1st birthday.


July 29th 1997
The baby girl celebrated her 2nd birthday with her family in Solo. She was happy with her grandparents surrounded her.


July 29th 2001
The baby girl was 6 years old. She already entered the 2nd year of elementary school.


July 29th 2010
She celebrated her 15th birthday with locking herself in her room all day long. The most gloomy day. (I even forget why that happened in my birthday :p)


July 29th 2011
She celebrated her 16th birthday! She was very-very-very happy. She got a surprise present from her best-girls and she just cured from chicken pox. She experienced many things in that month. She even promised herself to not be sad for 1 year ahead.


July 29th 2012
She is now 17 years old. She discovered new things, she enjoyed many things, she has new friends, she got what she dreamt of, she learned everything including broken heart, move on, and let go. Also learned the most important to put God first in everything she will plan and also learned how to be the servant of God. She got many messages congratulated her. She is happy, of course. Why must not? She has a family that loves her perfectly, she has friends, and she has Jesus who made (and still making) a best plan for her life. :)

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The baby girl (who is not a baby anymore :p) wrote this:

Feel grateful, feel thankful. For this past 17 years...

God's working in me, in everything I've done.
He showed me which one was true, which one was not.
The one that deserved a place in my life, the one that deserved a place only in memories.
The one that really cared, the one that just came and walked away.
He showed me a family that is far from perfect, but always love me perfectly,
just simply as I am.
He unconditionally loves me and leads my life.

For the wishes,

God is The Only One who already knew what I need and what I deserve.
What will be the best for me, what will not.
Well, I just want Him to make everything's best in the best time & place, for the best reason.
I have so-many-wish-es in my heart. A lotttttaaaaa lot.
So I just ask God later if what I wish what He wants me to be, or what He wants it to happen.

Thanks a lot, God! :)

Thanks a lot, friends!
Thanks a lot, family!

This post dedicated to them, whom I mentioned before, for BKKUI'12, for Anugerah's friends, for 68's friends...

and (last but very important people!) for... *drum rolls*
Komisi Remaja GKPI! Let's build our church, build our teenager's life with God together! :)

7.19.2012

Hilang dan When You Love Someone...

Currently liking this Endah 'n Rhesa's song, "When You Love Someone". I never really heard this song before until I watched a video on Youtube and the video-maker made this song as the soundtrack. And I'm thinking, if it's that easy to love someone and be brave to say, there won't be any 'galau thingy' in this world. But surely, you have to hold your love when it comes or if you loose it, you'll loose the chance to make your dream come true.
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Berulang kali aku berpikir
Berulang kali aku mencari
Berulang kali aku termenung
Berulang kali juga
aku tak menemukan
Atau sesungguhnya...
Aku sendiri tidak tahu
apa yang benar-benar aku cari?
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7.07.2012

Some Stuff(s)

Malem galau. Malem ling-lung. Atau whatever you named it. Yang jelas malem ini gue merasa seperti seorang manusia pengangguran tak tahu arah, luntang-lantung. Punya a bunch of spare-time tapi nggak melakukan apa-apa. Sesuatu sekali. (apasih)

Kegiatan gue seminggu ke belakang dari pagi: bangun pagi jam 7, dibangunin kadang (memalukan, tapi gue gak punya jam biologis, ya dasar gue -_-) - ngobrol sama orangtua sebelum mereka berangkat kerja - mandi - sarapan - nonton Are You Smarter Than A 5th Grader bentaran - berangkat ke gereja jam 10 kurang - bikin dekorasi, nontonin latihan - makan siang - lanjut dekorasi, nonton latihan - pulang jam 3 jam 4 - tiduran, main HP, ngobrol sama sepupu dan temannya kalo mereka main - mandi - makan - stay depan laptop - tidur.

Pusing bacanya? Tapi itulah kegiatan gue sejak bangun - tidur - bangun lagi seminggu ke belakang. Sebentar lagi ada perayaan HUT Komisi Remaja GKPI broh~ Cek aje di facebook undangannya. Sudah terlalu malam memasukkan gambar undangannya.

Sudah masuk bulan Juli. Ah sudah tanggal 7 tepatnya. Malam ini gue membuka blog senior-senior gue. Ada tulisan yang bikin ngakak, ada tulisan serius yang bikin gue jaw-dropped, ada yang flat, ada juga yang seru, dan ada juga yang nyeritain pengalamannya kuliah. KU-LI-AH. 6 huruf 1 kata. Nggak, gue nggak nyebut satu kata kerja itu kam**** atau apa. Tapi itu realita yang akan gue hadapi mulai bulan depan. Awal bulan Agustus ketika kegiatan lo sudah dijadwal padahal belum kuliah.

Lalu malam ini gue berefleksi. Seiring pula mengucapkan selamat pada teman-teman yang berhasil mencapai impiannya di PTN manapun, yang belum, ayo coba lagi, banyak jalan menuju impianmu kok! Ya gue berfleksi sambil membalas BBM, cengar-cengir di WhatsApp, baca timeline Twitter, dan membalas SMS. Apa yang sudah gue lakukan selama gue tidak bersekolah dari akhir April. It's almost 4 months. Terakhir ketemu temen-temen itu waktu ambil ijazah, itu juga nggak semua. Sejujur-jujurnya, gue kangen mereka. Iya--mereka yang main monopoli bareng gue, yang ketawa-ketiwi bareng gue, yang dulu masih bisa bercanda bareng dan hey man! Kita semua sudah akan masuk ke dalam kehidupan yang sesungguhnya. Menggapai impian masing-masing, di tempat-tempat berbeda. Entah perut gue sendiri agak mules dengernya. Bukannya gue tidak suka dengan hal ini, gue suka sekali. Impian kita semua pasti tinggi-tinggi. Masalahnya adalah, apakah kita sudah siap?

Secara pribadi, gue belum siap. Gue belum 17. Gue belum ber-KTP. Ditambah muka dan postur badan gue yang mirip anak SMP baru naik kelas gini. Entah gue belum siap. Gue bersyukur sudah bertemu teman-teman yang baik di jurusan ini. Tapi tetap saja... Mendengar kabar dari mereka yang sudah berkuliah, rasanya masih sedikit enggan.

Apa yang akan terjadi nanti?

Apa yang bisa kamu ceritakan nanti?

Entah, malam ini gue hanya berpikir demikian.

Lalu gue teringat akan satu renungan yang pernah gue baca dari mana lupa. Intinya renungan itu berkata:
"Seiring dengan bertambahnya usiamu, kamu makin bisa melihat penyertaan Tuhan yang makin luar biasa dalam hidupmu."
Ya, ketika gue berpikir kala itu, itu memang benar adanya. Lo akan semakin banyak melihat keajaiban Tuhan. Karena ketika lo masih dalam usia anak kecil, mungkin lo gak akan ngerti.

Entah, doa gue setiap harinya (yah walau gue doa yang bener-bener doa aja masih sering bolong), Tuhan yang pimpin hidup gue akan bagaimana. Karena gue gak tau apa yang akan terjadi, dan ngandelin kekuatan gue sendiri itu tidak mungkin.