Ocean of Light

I don't know what made me wrote the title like that. Probably Nell's song 'Ocean of Light' which suddenly playing in my head, but just now I read the translation and put on a sarcastic smile.

Will everything that you believed inBecome nothing?Are you afraid it’ll become like that?

Because everything I've believed in, became nothing. I believed someone did love me years ago, but it ended up me crying on my bed and having a hard time in forgiving a person like him (and even met with him will only burst out my anger). I believed time won't change my friendship but in the end distance being put between all of us. I believed that it will summer soon, but here comes the rain.

No, we aren't in love are we? Because love takes time. We barely know each other. We barely feel something toward each other. And to be honest I feel that we only hurt each other. I thought this will lead to nowhere. We are same, yet different.

The idea of falling in love scared me the most nowadays. They said love comes when you less expect it, but not in such a short moment, right? The idea of adding people in my life right now will take me nowhere, the worst is it will lead to another mess. I don't need another headache, I'm much in trouble with just one bang in my head. My friend said 'here comes the spring for you, Ny.' but I answered it vaguely 'No, this will lead to autumn, even winter.'

Deep inside I long for someone to walk together under the rain or sun, but for now, no, thank you, let's take our time and see if this will lead me to somewhere, hopefully nice.

Break down the walls that trap you

No, not now.