"If you were to change one thing about yourself, what would it be?"

See the title? I've got that question in ask.fm. I spent minutes to think what would I change about myself when I have a chance?

I spent minutes to wrote a stupid answer. But I spent few seconds to decide that I want to write this for my blog post.

"If you were to change one thing about yourself, what would it be?"

This question bothered me and seconds later I found what I want to change about myself. It's my past. Well, everyone has their own past. Good or bad, dark or bright, they have it. I have it too. My high school years are past. High school which everyone thought as the most beautiful time in your life didn't really happen to me. I think I have a bittersweet past. More bitter than sweet. More rain than the sunny day.

I wish I could change my past. Make it brighter, paint it colorful. Because that past sometimes bothers me in the present, floods my brain with the memories I wish I don't want to have.

I thought past has already happened in the past. But why I'm still here bothered by the presence of the past?