Dear you,

It’s been 58 days since our late-night conversation when everything’s revealed. And everytime I got your message, I can’t help but smile.After that day, we have a date (I considered that day as a date, OK?) just once. We had so many plans, I always said, “OK, I can go.” After this 3-| emoticon appeared in your message. I always said that, not because that emoticon, but I also want to meet you. Maybe Taylor Swift was right, I was enchanted to meet you, dear.

But—everytime we had a plan, you’ll cancel it afterward. Alwayas. And always. And everytime you said “Sorry.” I don’t know what to say but I just can say,”It’s OK :)” but honestly, I felt a little bit disappointed. You don’t know that I was trying to be patient to wait that kind of day to come eventhough it’s hard, do you?

And everytime I chat with you via blackberry messenger, and you just read it without even trying to write a message, do you know how I feel? Disappointed, sad, and angry—I don’t know what to say. And then, there’s one question in my mind, ”Am I the one who always trying?”

I keep myself to be patient. You’ve said to me that you are busy. You can’t always have your phone in your hand. I always want to be like that girl who always get a ‘good-morning’ or a ‘good-night’ text from the boy who loves her, because in my perception, that boy must be really care.

And now, I wrote this blog post, maybe you won’t read this, or you will, someday. I don’t ask you to always tell me where you at, whom you are with, or what are you doing now, I just want you to tell me how was your day and your condition. I also want to tell you my story in a day. I don’t want us to meet everyday, to have a date once a week. All I want just keep your promise. If you can’t go, don’t make one than. You don’t know how much it hurts when suddenly you broke that promise, do you?

When I said, “I miss you.” I must be really tired, and I always hope you’ll cheer me up, just like that time. Ah, I think I ask too much, right? OK, I want you to keep your promise. Just that, than. If you can do that kind of simple thing, I’ll be really happy, you.

And... we haven’t meet for 43 days. I’m missing you sodamndamndamndamnmuchmuchmuchmuchmuch. Will you call or chat me? :”(